The Summer in the Bathroom Stall

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him. The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord. It is good for a man to bear the yoke while he is young.”

Lamentations 3:22-27

That verse is food for my soul.

Want to know a dirty secret about me? I had never heard of this verse until I read it on the toilet. I worked at this camp one summer and our living quarters were not fancy to say the least. [pictured] We called our house the ‘Hot box’ because there was no A/C. Our bathroom was under another house, all concrete, and made me feel dirtier rather than clean. But the bathroom stall door had this verse taped to it. So for almost 60 days straight I would read the verse, a few times a day. Honestly, this verse seemed quite boring the first week. Then it clicked. I went from reading it, to believing it and then letting it minister to my spirit. Looking back, I am glad someone taped it to the stall because where else do you go and are not distracted a couple times a day? I am defiantly not saying we should make a revolution of reading bibles on toilets. But I am interested if there is a way to not have any distraction and focus at least daily on the thing that is such a crucial part of life.248227_10150189624560736_1245042_n

(I WOULD LOVE IF YOU WOULD COMMENT AND TELL ME HOW YOU GET IN YOUR DAILY BREAD OR WAYS YOU HAVE BEEN ABLE TO FOCUS ON READING THE BIBLE)

But can I just say again-this verse. It breathes life on me so much. We are NOT consumed! Never! At least we don’t have to be-His faithfulness is great enough!! That anxiety that makes you curl up or gives you a tummy ache: invite Him to sit next you: He cares! Mess something up-declare how faithful He is! He wants to sit with you when you’re stressed and take away that pit of the stomach feeling. He is your daddy and will help when you make a mess of something, just as a dad would help his little one clean up cheerios.

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I love that God created seasons. He knew how necessary it was to His creation. We need the season in front of us to change and mature into who we are created to be. That season, He really drew me close as a lover. Have you ever dated someone and looked back on the season? It was so special and you had such good times together. For me that’s this summer, and this verse. God showed me that He would always chase after me, He would always love me first, and He always had what was best for me in mind.

At the end of the summer I went on a walk. I decided not to walk too far because already I had seen a bear ten feet away and been trapped by a rattle snake weeks before. One night I even believed I had seen a lion (which I know do not live in Colorado). But that is another story in which perhaps was just the Lord showing up in a different manner. I sat down at sunset with the mountain in front of me just completely falling in love with Jesus. I begin to have conversation with Him and tell Him how much I love Him. I am still cry thinking about what I felt next and all the things I know now that were birthed out of that season.

During that time of prayer with Him, I knew that the season was coming to a close. It had been a lonely one, where I had faced things I hated about myself and where I was at in life. But the season ended with me feeling like I was weaved together with Him. Somehow I came out of that prayer time knowing that the season of just Jesus and I was over. I felt like a new person was going to come into my life and it was going to change.

As I was looking through the pictures of the summer, I was struck by realizing my dream of an orphanage and adoption was planted that season! I never knew the love I had for kids! Thank you Lord for doing so much in one season, even when I started it as a “woe me time”.

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Why do I ever question His faithfulness?? It is new every morning. Even in the seasons that seem stupid- He has compassion for me and I can hope and believe for MORE because He is bigger than my thoughts.

If you are wondering what came of the new person- I meet my husband about a month later. Looking back I am in awe. I know what your thinking- it doesn’t happen like that. And to be honest I wasn’t excited to share myself with anyone. My husband and I’s relationship has not been perfect, but I do consider him to be a gift from God. It has been over six years and I have gone through so many more seasons. This verse is my favorite to go back to because I will never shake the bond I have with Him, knowing He never stops being faithful. Every hard season, this verse feeds my soul of His faithfulness that is everlasting.

That’s what the word does: speaks truth and testimony of Him. I need that in my life- all the time. Because He is my foundation, truth and eternal hope.

*Side note: Two songs that go great with letting your spirit soak in His faithfulness:

-“Reckless Love”

-“King of my heart”

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