Today I went home sick from work. Dragging in the door I was clouded by feeling almost half alive. The sensation of being able to think but only through some thick fog and congestion was overwhelming. WOE ME was alive and happening. The night before I had been disappointed with experiences and feeling left out in a crowd, followed by physically being beaten down by the cold season.
I was famished so I opened the fridge. It was like magic. Everything you could possibly imagine for a taco salad was pre-washed, cut, separated and ready to mix in a bowl. There was juice with Vitamin C, trail mix, a cold mocha, and brownies for later. I look in the sink and the mess I left had vanished. My husband’s consideration of me made my pity party drop.
I ABOUT LOST IT. My heart attitude shifted.
I walked into my bedroom to grab a sweater and found myself smiling- I just can’t believe how cute our house is, I love it. (below is not our house, but an ice museum we visited that was awesome). When did I become so comfortable with these things I had prayed so hard for? Where was this entitlement coming from?
The question struck me: Are you still thankful for what you prayed for?
Lately I keep finding myself still wanting more even though I have more than enough. I actually trick myself into believing ‘if I just had this or that than life would be awesome.’
Years ago I was (what I now know as) deeply interceding for Logan to be my husband. Since we were married, I think I have thanked the Lord for him only a hand full of times.
My point is- Are you thankful yet? How much more until you fall on your face in awe of how much God loves you and would give you?
Imagine having a child who you love so dearly. They have been pleading endlessly for something. At the right time you weigh the sacrifice you’ll have to make and decide to get that something for them. They open the present and say a quick thanks, then toss it aside and rarely pick it back up or say another thanks. What a blow to my heart that would be!
I want to be a mature daughter. Always being able to praise the Lord what He has done, for what He has given, and for who He is.
“Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise, give thanks to him and praise His name.” Psalm 100:4
It is true: God is not in need of our love. Although, He does desires us and wants to show His love. (side note: I do believe how we steward our blessings plays a role in His pleasure in handing us over those gifts).
It is a heart attitude- and it changes our outlook. Being grateful should be easy if we act like sons and daughters of the King. Not only for blessings (James 1:17)- but for a relationship with a God who literally wore all that it took to break each of us free from all sickness, pain, sin, and hate- to be with Him again.
His love- gives me enough reason to ALWAYS be thankful.
“Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18
“Let us come before Him with thanksgiving and extol Him with music and song. For the Lord is the great God, the great King above all gods.” Psalm 95:2-3
“Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our ‘God is a consuming fire,’” Hebrews 12:28-29